Aura's Antics
Friday, July 28, 2006
Gone Fishin'...
... in Atlanta for new ideas and inspiration.
Will return Monday, July 31st.
~ Mgmt.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Betrayal and the Lowly EmployeeI'm sure I can probably blog about other things than work, but not today. We're moving to another building so things are already stressful. Add in all the stress between me and my boss and it's only a matter of time before the volcano blows.
I was never sure why, but I knew that things had changed between she and I since things have been getting progressively worse. I've worked my ass off since my coworker left 8 months ago and they never hired anyone to replace her (until last week). Instead of gaining more respect I've been steadily losing it.
Today I found out why.
In late October of last year, when my boss was on vacation, my coworker and I went to her boss at our wit's end because our boss was just treating us so badly and wouldn't listen to us when we tried to talk to her about it. Her boss confronted her on it when she returned from vacation. We knew she was pist because she didn't talk to us for a week.
Now I know that she felt betrayed by us. She told someone who is looking out for me (and I'm sure that this isn't the only person that she's told) that my coworker and I went to her boss and said a bunch of bad things about her. We betrayed her in her eyes and we're joining a long list of people that betrayed her.
Her ex-husband and her ex-boyfriend both cheated on her. She's never forgiven them. She's not forgiving me.
If I had known that going to her boss for help would cause me so much grief, I'd never have done it. I had no idea that things would escalate to the point that they have. But I do know two things:
1. I've committed an unforgiveable sin against her by trying to help myself
2. I didn't get the buyer job because of it.
So, the questions are... at what point do I quit fighting this losing battle and cut my losses, and would I just be letting her win if I did? She wants me to quit, I'm sure of it. She'd fire me if she could. Lucky for me she can't.
And lastly, what do I do now?
*sigh*
Saturday, July 08, 2006
Not the Buyer
So, many of you know that I've been extremely busy the last eight months because my co-worker quit and I've been doing both her job and my own to the best of my ability. After months of waiting for the Buyer job to be posted, it finally was in June.
I hadn't intended to apply because I knew that my boss didn't think I was qualified for it. She told me several times. Not in a "Don't even bother" way, but more of a "Once we get a qualified person in to do that job, you won't have to do both anymore..." kind of thing.
So, since I wasn't a qualified person to do the job that I was currently doing, why apply? Well, apparently I'm a glutton for punishment. My boss's boss encouraged me, several people in the office encouraged me, and so did my boyfriend... so I did it. I applied.
Had an interview.
Didn't get the job.
Guess what? I'm still not qualified for the job I've been doing for eight months. Does this make sense to anyone? It sure doesn't to me. I found out yesterday that they hired the woman that my boss really liked for the job. My boss says she has nothing to do with it, but I just don't know how much I believe.
I was ok with the decision, knowing that I would still have a job as an accounting assistant and get to sit by my friend Freda. Apparently that isn't going to happen either. Freda is moving to a different desk, so I'll be sitting in a corner by myself, with a few work-study students whenever they are there.
On second thought, maybe it's a good thing. Maybe I don't want to talk to any of those people anyway...
Maybe I should start looking for a new job when I get back from Florida in August...
