Aura's Antics
Thursday, March 30, 2006
The Dating Show UpdateLast Friday I received an email from Bachelor #1, withdrawing himself from the show. He's commitment-phobic, afraid of falling in love and being vulnerable, and feels like he is holding me back from finding the happiness that I deserve. We've had this conversation in the past, so I wasn't wholly surprised to have it again. It still hurts, but I had to let him go. I feel like I've done everything I possibly could, given everything I possibly could, and sometimes it's just not enough. I hope he finds the happiness he is looking for though. :)
Let's skip to Bachelor #3 next. He's hilarious, but I was just too uncomfortable because we work so closely. It felt like I was thinking about dating my boss. Too weird. We shrugged off the whole event and still work well together. Maybe later things won't be so strange for me. Who knows?
Finally there is Bachelor #2. He's really sweet and really likes me. We've gone to lunch a few times now and we're planning to do something this weekend. Although he's not as handsome as #1 and #3, I'm giving this one a chance. If nothing else, it's nice to have more friends, right?
I'll keep you posted!
Saturday, March 18, 2006
What to do?I'm not exactly sure how I get myself into these situations, but I'm in one that is a real doozey and I don't know how to handle it.
Problem #1: 3 men like me (Mind you, I'm not complaining! LOL)
Problem #2: I've never had 3 men like me at once- this is a record for me. I went years without anyone liking me at all! I have no idea what to do!!!
It is interesting to note that all 3 men are over 40 and have kids. I'm only 31. There age doesn't bother me, but I have come to the conclusion that men under 40 are not attracted to me. I'm not really sure why, but I suspect it's because there are many more women out there much thinner than myself, which men in their 30s are still looking for. The only thing that does bother me just a twinge is that I'm not sure if I want to have kids, but I'm fairly certain that these 3 men are done in that department.
Ok, back to the guys.
Bachelor #1: (OMG I'm on the dating show and I just realized it! LOLOLOL) is 42 with 2 grown children (girls- 22 and 20). He doesn't want any more kids. He owns his own business, has a gorgeous house, and 2 cute dogs. We have a lot in common, including writing, that we don't eat seafood, and love to read. We laugh like crazy together and have similar sense of humors which I love. He's handsome, has an amazing vitality, and takes care of himself. He inspires me to take better care of myself too. He is also petrified of commitment thanks to his ex and is deeply afraid that he can't give me what I need long term. Or that he'll find himself in the same situation as the last one.
* Side note: I'm madly in love with him.
Bachelor #2: He is 45 with 4 kids (all boys- 19, 17, and twin 13s) He's very nice, not quite as handsome as Bachelor #1, but still sweet and caring. I work in the same department as him. He REALLY likes me. We went to lunch on Thursday and he came in Friday to see if I would have lunch with him again on Monday. I don't know a lot about him yet.
Bachelor #3: He is 43 with 3 kids (all boys- 20, 18, and 14). He is hilarious. We laugh all the time. I also work with him, although more closely than Bachelor #2 which is not as comfortable. He is an attractive man, sweet, funny, and I had no idea that he liked me until last night when a group of us went out for St. Patty's. He asked me to go get dinner with him 3 times. I didn't because I was uncomfortable and had a headache. We get along great. But do we work a little too closely together?
* Side note: Bachelor #2 and Bachelor #3 BOTH showed up at the restaurant last night and both sat by me. I'm pretty sure that it was only awkward for me, since only I know that they both like me, but ACK! LOL
Argh! What do I do? I know that I shouldn't burn the bridges with Bachelors # 2 and 3, but do I tell them that I'm sort of seeing Bachelor #1? Do I just tell them that I want to be friends? Do I drop Bachelor #1? Can I do that? (Not likely)
Any advice for one with little experience? Thanks!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Field Trip!I think we need to go on a field trip...
Back to the Asylum...
This game is so much fun! See if you can cure the Plushies of their problems. Just watch out for those drugs... Mwahahahaaaaaaaaa!
Sunday, March 12, 2006
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
